So somewhere over the #internetrainbow

Yeah so my blog disappeared for a whole 24 hours? That was some weird shiz!
Who knew my little blog would be endangered and go #MIA ?

No they're not above the law

https://www.aclu.org/blog/womens-rights/women-and-criminal-justice/nypd-police-officers-union-wants-keep-sexual

Liars keep lying

Because it's all they know.
We develop into the person we become.

Hatched

I have rough edges because I was hatched.

We all were when you think about it. We are birthed from our Mother's womb into life.

What our minds are made of and how we function is what's to be excepted from societal norms. Our unique DNA helix shapes who we are.

Some are hatched into poverty while others are hatched into wealth and then in between that spectrum.

No one forms in gestation where there's a roulette wheel with a magnet attached to their umbilical cord with the winning number.

You can be born into greatness and come from nothing or born into wealth without your limbs.

So basically were all the same.

Just a little something for everyone to think about.

#philosophicalpatti

Limbo Land

Don't be a permanent resident...

We've all been in limbic states at different points. Some even stay in a limbic state their entire lives.  

I'm not one to stay in a state other than acceptance of reality.
Why waste your time in a deluded reality? Some do that. 
To each his own but I'm an orderly and compartmentalized thinker, limboland is not a place for me.

Vegetable Loaf

This is my personal copyrighted recipe but it's published to be shared with fellow foodies!

Enjoy!

Vegetable Loaf

6 potatoes mashed
3 portobello mushrooms
1 vidalia white onion
10 miniature carrots
1 half of a red pepper/half yellow pepper
One cup of kale (remove stems)
About 2-3 cloves of garlic

Spices - I use cayenne pepper in very small pinches. It's very potent.
Spiced curry powder
Sea salt
Tricolored pepper
Reduced fluids from portobello mushrooms

Boil potatoes with skin (more nutrients that way). Cut & dice portobello. Save fluids to add to potatoes. Not all of it but enough to give the potatoes some moisture. Mix all chopped ingredients together the same way you'd prepare a meatloaf.  

Bake at 350 until golden.

This is my recipe. I don't use measuring cups. I just go by eye.

Enjoy!

** High fiber content ** not recommended if you have a weak intestinal system or plan on being in small confined spaces with strangers:)

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Harmonious Nature

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Oh well another bout of insomniaaaah!
I'll have enough time to sleep when I go for my final siestã!

Ubanx a #cryptostartup

Startup Aims to Make Blockchain Mainstream With Brick and Mortar Stores

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Futon Mattress

I love my ingenuity!
I ordered this futon mattress to be used as a guest mattress in my spare bedroom.
I placed this over my old sofa and it looks great! It's so comfortable too! Like a big softie pillow. Now I'll throw a sheet over it and it's all good.
My train of thought is to always work with what you have!
Peace and love! Stay safe everyone!

Standing up for yourself

I've always had it in me but I didn't think I'd be able to go through with it only because I don't have the energy for anything negative.
Much to my surprise, the battle field wasnt what I anticipated. 
I think once you start to take action and stand up for yourself you'll be surprised to see that what your defending was worth it. 
It's worth it because you let it be known that what occurred in the matter that brought you to this point was worth the fight. 

No one wins

THE TRUTH IS NO ONE WINS.

Movement Analysis

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC25000/

Interesting article to read.
My Mom told me that I didn't walk or talk until I was almost 3 years old but once I started talking I never shut up? That's exactly how she said it too! I love you Mom!
This is what made me think about this because
I've always been very tuned in on a sensory/ visual level so I could be on the spectrum.
My writing and attention to detail has always been very good. That could be a sign of something, documentarian? Wait... is that even a word...but I did notice similarities of autism with myself so that's why I'm writing about it.
My son definitely has tendencies of autism yet he was not slow in movement or speech like I was.
Knowledge keeps your brain from freezing. 

Moments

Now at this moment life has come to an abrupt stop. Not regarding the daily activities of life but the way that life has slowed down to catch up with the last few years that I had.
I compare them to a bad episode of an intervention because of my sons addiction.
I knew my son was back to using by his behavior. My son's relapse madness started in 2015.
I asked my husband to help me do an intervention to try to suggest rehab for him. His response was no response. He said he didn't want my son to file a police report on him.
My husband doesn't have any criminal history but he just said something crazy and off the wall.
When he said that I looked at him like he was an idiot. I said WTF are you talking about?
Well fast forward to now and this is why things have slowed down.
The clock keeps moving and I'm slowing down to try to catch up.
My son and his addiction is very painful to see. He was locked up for 7 months but now he's out and all I can do is pray for divine intervention.
August 2017 I received a call from a doctor from Bellevue. I thought my son was dead. Thank God he wasn't. He was taken to BellevueCPAP, the One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest wing of Bellevue. He hadn't slept in months.  I went to see him and it killed me. Seeing your adult child having auditory hallucinations in front of you was a helluva lot going on.
Yeah that's the type of shit that went on in 2017. After his release he was here at my house withdrawing. Now prior to this he was supposed to show up for his felony court case in Connecticut but he was a no show. My son went back to the city and I had to go rescue him each time.
My son hit rock bottom from my view point but he didn't think so.
When we bailed him out of jail he was supposed to go right into rehab. He had other plans. He asked my husband and I to bring him to the New Haven CT police station where his personal belongings were. He knew we were then taking him right into a rehab facility. When the truck stopped he bolted outta the truck and ran into the police station. When I say it was an insane experience, I kid you not. Then my husband tries to grab him and he ran. I follow him into the police station and explain what the necessary course of action was as per his fuc*ing probation and they surrounded me like I was the inmate! I went back in the truck and I was hysterical crying.
I don't cry because I've always had to be strong  but when I do, I basically convulse with entire body tremors.
This was April 2017.
One time I picked him up from a drug binge run. I asked him where he stayed. He said he was sleeping on park benches.
As far as my husband's disconnect with not getting involved, that was the worst thing to do. Lesson learned, now he's tuned out. He's summoned when I need him because that type of behavior goes both ways.
My husbands disconnect and douchiness has been present since early on.
Why stay? I'm great at detachment myself because I've been on my own since I was 17.
My nature is compassion and understanding so that's where I place my energy.
As far as my son, I pray.

Mentally Bulletproof

When you experience a great deal of stress you either lose your mind or you learn how to cope.
For me coping skills have become vital for my sanity.
That's why it's important to enjoy simple things in life because if you can't, it can increase additional stress to your existence.

Get a GRIP White People

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Bloomberg Partner

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Advise not taken

It's not uncommon. Many of us have done it. It's usually given or offered as protection to help avert damage. 

In some situations there is still time to heed the warnings, others it's too late.
For myself I've fallen in the advise taken column but not always. I consider those decisions as very educational because I could have avoided fuck*ing up a situation had I only taken the advise given!
We're all works in progress.
Peace, love & good health!

Coinbase

https://www.ccn.com/coinbase-responds-to-new-york-ags-crypto-exchange-inquiry/

Teenage Me

I was so young and innocent to life.  Holy shit man, I look at this little girl and I tell her this... Trust no one. Stay away from crowds of people going nowhere fast.
What you see is never what it is. Be very leery of the opportunities that will come your way. Not because you lack intelligence and capability but because peers will see you as a threat.

Expect the unexpected because it is a theme of life. Not only for you, little one but it happens to all.

Be prepared for many obstacles because nothing comes easy to you or for you. 

You'll always have your light within so remember that when shit hits the fan and for you it will hit many times. Learn how to stay grounded. 

Always do things as if someone is watching because at the end of the day, that someone will be your conscious.

Barrel

If we find ourselves in  a barrel we ask why. Did we walk into the barrel, did somebody place us in the barrel? 

Something that I've asked myself when I see things that happen.

Master Crash - How Not To Be An Idiot

With all the talk about #MasterClass I've decided to write about what I call 

#MasterCrash, Series One, How Not To Be An Idiot

Theme of the class is to do the following;

1.  Not think the world revolves around you.
2. Be considerate of your actions towards others. The F/ing world does NOT repeat does NOT revolve around you.
3. Be Honest even if it hurts. If you lie, you're trustworthiness is ZERO.
4. Please for the love of God, don't think you're always right because you're not.
5. Be kind. It doesn't cost anything.

If you practice these steps on a daily basis, you will see vast improvements in your day to day dealings with mankind.

Stay tuned, more to follow....

Negative Ions are better

Just as positive ions build up in the atmosphere prior to a storm front, negative ions accumulate following a storm. This surfeit of negative ions has long been associated with improvements in mood and physical health. Research conducted in the last decade has begun to support the view that negative ions have a net positive effect on health.

So very true!

https://nutritionreview.org/2013/04/positive-health-benefits-negative-ions/#

Homemade potatoes

#potatoes #magnesium #potassium

Google Alerts

I became fascinated with the World Wide Web aka Internet when it first came out. Remember, it was always www in lowercase! For myself and everyone that I knew who used the Internet for the first time all shared the same excitement, our world just opened up. 
I know for me it did. I felt like I'd be able to do things to make life easier for myself and my family.
My forward thinking was right. I remember my first online order like it was the first time I was kissed. It made shopping easier and back then that was a priority. I ordered a bathing suit! 
How insignificant it seems now but for me in my small world it was epic. 
Which brings me to my topic, Google Alerts. When I found that feature on my computer a while back I set it up. I was curious to see if anyone looked for me or someone else who shared my name. Much to my surprise I kept seeing my name appear on my google alerts at the same time. I thought it was just coincidence but I kept seeing my name being searched the same time for a minute there, like about a year or so. 08:34AM was the time of day my name was searched. Weird yeah... but when it comes to things that I've seen weird is an understatement. I'm not referring to anything kinky,no,not at all. To each his/her own. No judgement. I'm talking about weird shit that people do and how they can be so off with and towards others. We're all mental defects in our own way but I've seen some that are just Special! I definitely can't make this stuff up. 
We never know what lurks out there so always be on your guard. 
Life ain't unicorns and rainbows,its more like pain,suffering, exhaustion,then some relief then some more of the same struggles but in different ways. Unless you live in a bubble.
Peace and blessings to all!

Centerport L.I.

So I have a tracker on my blog that only I can see and the funny thing is that Centerport Long Island seems to sign-on whenever I go to see stats.

I guess if you're a stalker, you do things like that?

JP Morgan

Cryptocurrency Market Will Get 'Much Bigger': Former JPMorgan Banker

https://search.app.goo.gl/zdvpZ Shared from my Google feed

Drive by

Wow so I saw you drive by my house?
Imagine that?

2018/04/22 On my camera. 

A quick note about that.  The vehicle manufacturer has its very own gps which gives exact location via bluetooth.

Largest Donation

29 

MILLION

CRYPTOCURRENCY DONATION!

https://twitter.com/FastCompany/status/987589659231510528?s=19

#ethereum

Free Crypto Trading App Robinhood Launches in Colorado with Bitcoin, Ethereum https://search.app.goo.gl/yn9Kq Shared from my Google feed

Miss Roller Skater

Years ago when I was in a funk I remember this girl that I worked with telling me, "girl, get outta ya funk & get over it!" I said, "your right girl!" 
Now this woman was 300 pounds & she was the same height as I am, which is 5'6".  I sat there for a quick moment, looked at her up & down & then gave myself a quick one over & I said "damn skippy I will!" 
My weight back then was 130ish. Anyways, she would come to work and share stories from her weekend rollerskating activities.   
She was a large full figure woman. The thought of her having a good time laughing on the skating rink made me think.  I said to myself, "damn, if she can get on a pair of skates with her big ass & not give a F, I don't have a damn thing to worry about.  I am not body shaming full figured women, REPEAT NOT BODY SHAMING, what I'm saying is that we, us screwed up human beings are our own worst enemies. 
She had me laughing so hard that I thought I would pee my pants.  
We all underestimate ourselves when we have things going on. It's human nature. We find our defects and we only focus on them.
I'm no Doctor Phyllis but I know human nature.  Sometimes it can be something as simple as knowing others are able to enjoy themselves and yet they too have their fare share of issues. 

Moral of my post, be happy about the little things. 
Have fun, even if its something really simple as enjoying a good book or laughing at yourself for doing the dumb shit we all do. Things pass. We learn how to weather the storms. 

An old post from 2011

So I remember going through a very difficult time in my life after 911.  I remember reaching out to a few therapists because I was in the throngs of a severe depression.  Gee, who would image that? I just lost my husband (we were divorced but had gotten back together - technically he was my ex-husband), my Mom just passed away from lung cancer & I was living on East 28th Street & 2nd Avenue.  I lived one city block from the Office of The Chief Medical Examiner OCME.  

After the attacks I wouldn't ride the subways out of fear of being blown up so I'd make my way back home on the bus.  I'd take the M101 bus home.  The route for that bus was up along First Avenue.  Well, while on the bus many times I'd see the OCME trucks bringing body parts to the site.  It was just so surreal and overwhelming that I'd just look and stare - I was catatonic but functioning.  The bus would stop diagonally across the street from the entrance to the OCME and the workers in the white jumpsuits would line up & start taking the body parts off the trucks.

I remember calling a few therapists and leaving voicemail messages.  NOT ONE OF THEM CALLED ME BACK!! I can laugh about it now but I was on the edge about to jump.  I actually saved their business cards to remind me how incompetent they were and how I'd never recommend them to anyone in need of a therapy.  I can't make this CRAP UP!! This is as real as a heart attack.

Hypocrites

How many times have we experienced judgemental people who like to preach to us? We all know they are full of crap because we've been in their presence and we've seen and heard them talk or in this case I'll use the word gossip about others.
I just had a run in with what I call a "Convenient Christian." I call them Convenient Christians because they play the religious hand when they want to make themselves feel self-rightheous and without sin.....newsflash......you're full of CRAP!

#bitcoin

https://www.ccn.com/experts-predict-bitcoin-price-to-reach-25000-by-2018-250000-by-2022/amp/

MySilverLocks

It took years before I did it but I must admit, going grey has completely removed my hangups about roots.

What's the big deal? Nada!!

Accept and admire the aging process, many never achieve it.

Peace and love!

Operating Engineers NYC

https://youtu.be/gEq5BG0heZs

#badasshombre

The #badasshombre

 I was watching the story behind a very interesting cat named McAfee.  It's amazing how his truth about corruption in government sparked so much controversy.

I believe him because government is corrupt #AF

Go McAfee!!

BitCoin

Bitcoin's soaring value was down to 'infected' buyers, economists say

Bitcoin - An innovative payment network and a new kind of money.  

It is the first decentralized digital currency, as the system works without a central bank or single administrator.  Wikipedia

Thank you #satoshinakamoto

Cheap or Not Cheap

Paper Napkin vs Cloth Napkin

So as I was reminiscing about my single dating life with my dental hygienist I told her the story about the "Paper Napkin" date.  She was telling me about how cheap her soon to be ex-husband was since they first met.  
I had to share my experience with the Paper Napkin date.  I had been talking to this guy for about three months. Our schedules conflicted so we would chat on the phone or online via online chatting pre-texting era.  Good old AOL days!
This was back in the mid 1990's.  
When we finally met for our first date we were deciding upon where to go and have dinner.  We walked past a few nice restaurants and I was waiting for him to take the lead because I wasn't familiar with these places. As we inched our way closer to the menu that was posted on the door I saw him get slightly flustered because he saw the prices for the different entrees.  I got totally turned off but I didn't say anything, I just observed.  Then we walked passed a less expensive restaurant and he seemed more pleased with their prices, all of which were under $10 bucks.  
At that point I decided it was a good time to have a sudden migraine because if a guy was going to be cheap on the first date,  he won't get a second date with me.  
Hence, the title of this short story, "Paper Napkin vs Cloth Napkin."

Ladies, take my advice, make sure you bring extra cash when on a date because he might ask you to pay for the meal after his credit card gets declined. 
Just saying.... 

We all know how expensive things can be but guys, if you're going to take a lady out for dinner and you're on a budget, pick the place in advance.  Most restaurants will not cost you a weeks salary unless you're in Dubai or your ordering bottles of aged bourbon.

The moral of this story is if it walks like a duck, it's a duck.

Suspended Animation

After the September 11th attacks I was floating or as I like to say, I was in suspended animation for about three years.  I was breathing but barely functioning. I guess seeing people jump from a burning building to their demise while others were running while on fire then seeing my Mother get hourly injection doses of morphine had something to do with it?

Or the fact that I worked a few blocks from the WTC and lived around the corner from NYC OCME’s office where the body parts were being catalogued had an effect on me.  

The smell of burning flesh and blood is still permanently ingrained in my sense of smell.

Easter Sunday 2018

RESURRECTION SUNDAY

Very happy and blessed to witness another Easter Sunday.

Give thanks daily and always be humble. 

#facts

Peace and Love!

#Enduro The King of the Lion

https://youtu.be/Oi32e1ObqgQ

HolySaturday

By #Godsgrace #Godsglory

When you get your message across using social media and you know the person is watching...even has a #securitycompany that keeps trolling this blog.

PattiNYC @pattinyc1

Yeah that puppy has grown so big now, he's even potty trained. I'm happy to see his progress. Black and red flannel looks good on him too🐶

PattiNYC‏ @pattinyc1

My cartoon character has a hairy chest. He's part of my book. My cartoon illustration skills have improved with the hairy look.

PattiNYC @pattinyc1

10+ years of roses being delivered by her secret admirer who owned bldg. where florist was located. Stalkerish? Law Enforcement thought so. Would call her Mother's looking for her? Poor guy. Story [ I've published ]

Time Space and Matter

Where do we fit in with time, space and matter?

Our energy and what we do with it should be something to think about if you have a pulse. I don't mean that in a  disrespectful manner to those suffering from cognitive or mental/medical issues but I see time now in a linear manner.
Make the most of energy because time moves very rapidly. As we age the theory of relativity also applies.  I figured it out like this, the day the new year starts whatever age you are on January 01, that number of days are already depleted from you timeline.
I'm 58 now, so it's like dog years now! 

Peace and Love!

#stalkerstalking

South Kensington

https://youtu.be/5WPbqYoz9HA

Why crazy finds me

The nuts and crazies always find me.  I've taken to my higher power on this and I asked for a sign. The sign God gave me is strength.  I have a very alpha presence.  
I don't deal with people too much. My circle is very small and I'm fine with that. When I do allow people in my circle, they craftly show up as an imposter. The real person appears after. I know who they are, but I allow them to think I don't see it.
I don't need garlic around my neck. I'm gifted with the #3rdEye.

Explore Third Eye Chakra, Chakra Balancing, and more

@wendys @mcdonalds #Beefbeef

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45th on the Planet

Dear President Donald Trump

We are currently living in a very unstable democracy here in the United States.

Since our 45th President has been sworn in, there's been quite a bit of ruckus in the White House.

I sincerely hope and pray that he seeks better advise and he uses "verbal restraint" while making statements that echo through the entire world.

Please whoever oversee's him, just look him straight in the eye with a stern handshake and tell him to "cut the bullshit!" It's enough!!

His attacks against his predecessor started way before he got into the political arena.  

Please someone in the #WhiteHouse grow a pair!!!

Scar Stories

Scar Stories

A  seldom few go through life without scars.  A scar can be as simple as a scrape on your knee or a bullet wound.  Scars represent a moment in time. That moment either caused severe pain and trauma or a simple paper cut. 
Either way, if you live to tell your story, you'll always have your scar or scars to remind you.
For myself, I'm a scar story. I've had quite a few injuries from a very young age.  At 3 or 4 years old while helping my Mom do chores I decided to take a dishtowel and insert it into the wringer that was atop of our washing machine. Circa 1963/64.

That injury set off a series of ongoing injuries I would have throughout my life.  A small dish towel and a preschooler left unattended could have been a bad situation.  I met my guardian angels early on in my life on my way into the wringer. 

I can actually remember that incident.  That's pretty amazing.  My Mom went to the bakery which was right up the block from where we lived on East 124th Street, #HarlemUSA.  My step Dad was sleeping.  My screaming woke him up in a panic.  My Mother ran up the steps into chaos. 
They rushed me to Hospital and my bone was fractured.  I wore a sling for a while.  
My adventure of sticking the towel into the wringer crushed my left shoulder blade and caused a contusion.  The fact that I was still growing saved my life.  Our bones are still pliable during our growth spurt years.  
Moving beyond my first injury came a series of injuries.  As a little kid, while deciding to take a nap from my tiring days of being a tomboy, I accidentally banged my head creating another scar above my left eyebrow.
I'd not only have visible scars but the internal scars were well on their way.  This is life and things happen.
Being a tomboy type of kid, I was always rough and tumble in appearance. My Mom never spoke to me about what I looked like. Well, at the age of five years old my Mom was diagnosed with a brain tumor. That tumor left her with two options; surgery with the possibility of becoming a vegetable for the rest of her life or death.  She choose surgery for us, her four children.  
That right there says it all.  I come from a tough stock.  Lessons are being learned everyday.

To be continued......

Thank You God!

No More 

Special Needs 

Projects

Why women think they can change a man is still a mystery that I'll never figure out.  I've been guilty of taking on pet projects myself. Even married it! 

Nonetheless, life is good!