Rosemary's Baby

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Saved him

When you think your saving someone is the best way to describe 

Humanity is a SWIRL.

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Humanity is a swirl. Without it it's vanilla. 

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Cancun Quintana Ro and writing about another traumatic experience. Expressing myself in writing is very therapeutic!

As I assist serving humanity, I also have the opportunity to relax and chill and recuperate emotionally from the insanity I had to deal with. 

The last almost 3 years of my existence since 10.19.19, the horrific morning my husband died have been so overwhelming for me. 

Especially the first year. 

Again I lived in suspended animation. 

He sadly never listened to me about his health. His cholesterol at one point... about 2017 was an extremely high number. It was over 400! Yes, you're not reading a typo. 

He neglected himself to a point that was very concerning to me. 

We had several conversations about him neglecting himself and about six months prior to his passing, I told him he needed to request an urgent evaluation to get to the root cause of all that ailed him.  I even seriously considered becoming his Guardian through Surrogate court so I could make his health care decisions. 

But as usual, I was disregarded. I was disregarded on just about anything and everything I tried to do with him.

Sad but true. 

Men not listening to their wife or girlfriend or in some cases both will, for the most part be a very bad error in judgment. 

I thought we'd grow old together. Instead I became a widow😵‍💫.

The morning I found him gone was by far the worst day of my life since September 11th, 2001. Yeah that's a whole other drama which I've already written about. 

The day I had my husband's memorial service, no one from his darling family acknowledged me, except his cousins  That's because he told his son & his family we were divorced! Another lie! 

They forget that when we met he was overwhelmed with stress from the previous relationship he was in which in hindsight, was a precursor to our relationship. He was self destructing . If he hadn't met me in July 2003 he would have passed away long before 10.19.19! 

They were well aware of how he spiraled back in 2003 with the root cause being his broken heart caused from his ex-wife who had her boyfriend who she left him for while he was out of town busting his ass to provide for his family! 

I did file for divorce and we went through the motions but he begged me to withdraw the petition with the promise of him changing and making "us, our marriage his priority. " Another fib. 

In their narrow point of view these beings actually thought it was my fault that he died! He had chest pains the night before and l said let's go! We're going to the ER and he said NO!, 3x plus. So not to argue with him and go back and forth I just kept checking on him. 

An hour later I told him I was calling and ambulance and again he became agitated with me. This he time he said "don't do that."

I swear on my life and the biggest stack of religious writings that have been written since the beginning of time, this shit really happened! 

Yeah, it was my fault that he worked like a dog. It was my fault he ate meat daily and smoked two packs of Black & Mild mini cigars. One pack of Black & Mild mini cigars are equivalent to one twenty pack of cigarettes. It was my fault that he had high blood pressure and he was pre-diabetic too! And he suffered from sleep apnea. 

Yeah, these beings had me tight!! 

They would have loved to see me lose my mind but all of this bullshit drama only made 10x stronger. 

Imagine spending fifteen years of your life with your spouse/significant other and caring and loving that person with all that you have and in return they don't have it in them to reciprocate love and compassion back? 

If you do, then you'd have a full understanding of what I experienced. 

Now I know it's behavior I grew accustomed to because my Mom wasn't warm and fuzzy with me. Not ever. She was an amazing strong woman and she was as cold as ice with her emotions being how she grew up. She was born in 1928 and grew up in the height of the depression. 

We gravitate to what we feel is comfortable to us.

Now the last order of business with these beings is for his son to continue making payments on the Jayco 5th wheel RV. I gave his son the RV, a 2016 Chevy Silverado with 66k miles paid in full and a very significant amount of money which he never paid taxes on.  All of which I didn't have to do because when you die in testament without a will in NYS, surviving spouse keeps everything. Considering how poorly I was treated, I still did the right thing. 

I didn't know about his latest fib until after his son said via text, that he thought we were divorced. 

This poor kid was lied to so much by both parents that I truly feel sorry for him because that's not the way to be. It's not the way to be with anyone, nonetheless your children. 

My message is this, when someone you're in an intimate relationship lies to you and you find out early on, remove yourself from that situation so you don't suffer and second guess yourself. 

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Recovery mode. Stay focused.

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Will do. How long was the trip? I shut down almost all of my energy after Mark passed. I had to heal and recover. Reset my clock. For real 😳 😫 

Neglect

Consider being neglected emotionally as child a blessing in adulthood because it taught you how to be very independent. 

This really happened to me.

This saga occurred. What I know is this... what happens in love and still being spiritually connected to an Ex that was your soul mate created an already insecure person to turn more sour than what they already were prior to their break-up with my Ex.

 

I stumbled across this maddening post with these slanderous lies about myself while job hunting online. 

I CAN'T MAKE THIS SHIT UP!! OMGWOW 

AnonymousMay 30, 2014 at 4:48 PM

Did this report include the money that was supposed to be in TRUST for minors? For the children who lost their parents on 911 and whose ex wife like Patricia Cubas Perry & MaryAnne Massa Bielfeld & Annette Clark Gonzalez & Eve Torres harassed and Scammed and went after Peters Fiancé Theresa Clarner & played around with her Timesheet's @ The New York City Fire Department and used there mafia family members to torture my friend's life because she is a GREAT MOM to her daughter and they want to say and set my friend up in doing things she did not I worked with Theresa @ the Fire Department and she gave me all the documentation on Michael Lippman and all these people who sold her and Peter's Condo on Barker she didn't who stole all the $500,000.00 of coins out of the Condo who has gone in and out of her daughters accounts illegally. Who takes a con Edison bill out of a tenants name and places it in hers for $7,985.98. There is 13 years of Criminal activity with the Bronx Surrogates Court & Peters ex Wife Patty Cubas Perry her friend & Maryanne Massa Bielfeld & Peters Family because they wanted what Brittany has. Where is the Justice for my friend that I worked with her for 23 years I no her since we were 21 years old and started working @ EMS together. Who should I contact with all the documentation I have.

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Patricia Cubas-PerryOctober 23, 2014 at 2:29 PM

Excuse me who ever you are but your using my name in a malicious manner. I had nothing to do with Teresa Clarner so you post has been reported as harassment. I'm now going to contact the blogger and have them retrieve your ISP # and have my lawyer send you a harassment letter. Thank you. 

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Patricia Cubas-PerryOctober 23, 2014 at 2:40 PM

I just did a google search for my name & I found this. Well whoever you are I think I know who it is expect a letter from an attorney to be heading your way. 

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Patricia Cubas-PerryOctober 24, 2014 at 3:04 PM

these people who sold her and Peter's Condo on Barker ? Really, he purchased that condo before he ever met you back in 1987 & your name was never on the deed? another lie by a very troubled woman. He died intestate, therefore leaving his soul heir Brittany as his benefactor. You happen to be the Mother so please stop with your attacks, get the much need psychiatric help you need & keep it moving. What I did find on line was that you have all sorts of legal issues w/a previous tenant & you've also slandered the lawyers name so I've sent him your tale of woes that's on file. SIC SIC SIC http://documents.dps.ny.gov/public/Common/ViewDoc.aspx?DocRefId=%7BF96095E1-5833-4DC8-A2DD-BF0B771A7A94%7D

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Old school washing machine

#anoldiebutgoodie

#toughskin #cantbelieveallthe #catastrophiccrap #ihavesurvived

TBT My Mom had this washer when I was a kid. I was fascinated by the wringer mechanism. So fascinated that I put a dishtowel into the top & it lifted my little 3 yr old arm into the wringer. That wringer almost crushed my left arm/ shoulder.  #ouch #memories #scars #wounds #toughskin 😂😂😂

Happened that quick!

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Goodbye Twitter it's been real. 

yes birthdays

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Birthday



What an amazing feeling! 

Celebrating my 62nd birthday!

I feel so much gratitude to still being alive.

I speak from the heart. I speak from the heart about everything I talk about. 

There's nothing about my character that consists of lies, deciet or manipulative traits.

I include these words of confirmation about not lying and being deceitful because 

I've lived my entire adult life with so many people constantly lying to me about things that I felt like Alice in Wonderland. 



As far as I know, it started two generations before I was a thought in my Father's testicle. 

I found out three years ago that I'm 30% Russian using ancestry DNA. All along we were told that our maternal Grandfather was Italian from Calabria Italy. 

Our maternal Grandmother was Swedish. That part of my ancestry turned out to be true. The story was told that my maternal Grandmother left our Maternal Grandfather because he had a secret family. 

When my Maternal Grams found out, she left him and her son's, my Uncle's and moved to Newark NJ.  

Oh and the story continues...

Stay tuned 

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Homeopathic

Aging stringy eyes and the simplest solution on how to alleviate the grittiness...

Salt added to boiled water.

Let it cool then rinse away the gook. I place the saline in a small glass jar. 

I rinse my eyes about three times a day.

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Cesspool of politics

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